chemo limo

• regina spektor'un 2004 yılında çıkarttığı soviet kitch albümünün 10. şarkısı. kanser olan bir kadın ile ilgili, mutlu mu yoksa derin depresyon mu çözemediğim şarkı.
  
  i had a dream
  crispy crispy benjamin franklin came over
  baby-sat all four of my kids
  
  then in my dream
  i told the doctor off
  he said if you don't want to do it
  then you don't have to do it
  he said the truth is
  you'll be okay, anyway
  
  then in my dream
  crispy crispy benjamin franklin and the doctor
  went and had a talk with my boss
  
  something about insurance policies
  they kept the door closed at all times
  i couldnt hear or see
  
  when they came out they said
  you'll be okay, anyway
  and i smiled cause i'd known it all along.
  
  no thank you no thank you no thank you no thank you
  i don't have to pay for this shit
  i couldn't afford chemo like i couldn't afford a limo
  and on any given day i'd rather ride a limousine
  
  no thank you no thank you no thank you no thank you
  i ain't about to to die like this
  i couldn't afford chemo like i couldn't afford a limo
  and besides this shit is making me tired
  it's making me tired
  it's making me tired
  you know i plan to retire some day,
  and i'm gonna go out in style
  go out in style
  this shit it's making me tired
  it's making me tired
  it's making me tired
  i'm-a gonna go out in style go out in style
  
  when i woke up
  my kids were being quiet
  i knew it was a dream right away
  i called the limousine company
  
  then i got dressed
  i dressed the kids as well
  the limousine pulled in
  and we piled in
  
  the doctor he asked which way we were headed
  i said, sir, let's just go west and he listened obediently,
  sophie only wants to listen to radio bbc
  michael sat on my knees and whispered to me
  all about the meanies
  jacqueline was being such a big girl
  with her cup of tea looking out of the window
  and barbara
  she looks just like my mom
  oh my god, barbara
  she looks so much like my mom
  
  no thank you no thank you no thank you no thank you
  i don't have to pay for this shit
  i couldn't afford chemo like i couldn't afford a limo
  and on any given day i'd rather ride a limousine
  
  no thank you no thank you no thank you no thank you
  i ain't about to die like this
  i couldn't afford chemo like i couldn't afford a limo
  and besides this shit is making me tired
  it's making me tired
  it'smaking me die
  you know i plan to retire some day,
  and i'm-a gonna go out in style
  go out in style
  this shit it's making me tired
  it's making me tired
  it's making me tired
  i'm-a gonna go out in style go out in style
  
  style
  style
  style?
  style.
  style..?
  style
  style..??
  style.
  
  i had a dream
  crispy crispy benjamin franklin came over and
  baby-sat all four of my kids
  
  i had a dream
  crispy crispy benjamin franklin came over and
  baby-sat all four of my kids
  
  sophie only want to tune us into radio bbc
  michael sat on my knees and whispered to me
  all about the meanie
  jacqueline was being such a big girl
  with her cup of tea looking out of the window
  and barbara
  she looks just like my mom
  oh my god, barbara
  she looks so much like my mom
  
  oh my god, barbara
  she looks so much just like my mom...
• bu şarkı bana içi kan ağlayıp da gülme taklidi yapan insanları hatırlatıyor:
  
  "oh my god, barbara
  she looks so much just like my mom" da ağlayacakmış gibi,
  
  "no thank you no thank you no thank you no thank you
  i don't have to pay for this shit
  i couldn't afford chemo like i couldn't afford a limo
  and on any given day i'd rather ride a limousine" burada da kopmuş gibi gözükmeye çalışır gibi değil gibi.
• harika bir şarkı. içinde hangi duyguyu ararsan var.
• kate nash bu şarkıyı dinlerken regina’nın kesin anne olduğunu düşünmüştüm, çocuğu olmadığını öğrendiğimde çok şaşırdım demiş. her şarkısı öyle aslında, küçük öyküler… çoğu da etrafında olan, gördüğü, tecrübe etmesine gerek kalmayan olaylar. hep gözlerim doluyor bu şarkıyı dinlerken. “oh my god, barbara” deyişi, “no, thank you”ları, mahcubiyeti, bazı yerlerdeki öfkesi… doktorun odasına giren her hasta gibi, çaresiz her hasta gibi, arkasında çocuklarını bırakacağını bilen her anne gibi. bir öykü kitabı çıkarsa olur yani regina’cım. prime time’a dizi yazsa filan… ya da en iyi bildiği işi yapıp bir albüm patlatsa en yenisinden ama eski tadında. remember us to life’ı hiç sevemedim çünkü.
• amandacım da coverlamış..
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