sadakatsizlik
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tuhaf duygu.
hayatta kendimden utanmadigim çok az özelligim, pek az tecrübem var; gel gör ki sadakat bu nadirlerden biri : aldatildim ama hiç aldatmadim.
önce kirmizi pinokyo, ardindan mavi bmx : bisiklet alaninda tek torunlara yarasir bir çocukluk yasadim. seneler geçip de çocukluk hayalleri sönünce* bir baska umudun pesinde yildiz'dan uzaklara, paris'e geldim*. sanatin, sanatçinin ve en çok da dalida'nin dostu, notre dame katedralinin önündeki meydana anna wojdyla'nin amcasi karol wojtyla*'nin ismini vermek isteyen ateist homoseksüel baskanimiz* sagolsun, artik paris'te herkesin serbest kullanimina acik bisikletlerimiz var. en güzel bej vespalar gibi estetik, e haliyle fransiz oldugu icin kelime oynuna da sahip gri bir farecik. "vive la vélorution*!" çocugu, özgürlük* bisikleti* vélib.
iyi-hos da, özgürlük sadakatsizlik mi demek?
eskiden herkesin bisikleti kendineydi. çocuklar gece bir gözleri açik uyurlardi. kilitler boyna inci kolye diye asilirdi. sahibi ölünce, bisiklet köpek gibi mezarin dibinde dikilirdi; kolunun gücüne güvenen bisikletini mezara kendiyle birlikte gömerdi. tutmayan frenleri, diz kanatan kovalamacalariyla eski bisikletler eskiydi ama sadikti. güzel vélib'in hatlari yuvarlak, tombis yanaklari tatli; danseder gibi kayiyor yokustan asagi*. ama yarin baska bacaklarin arasindan da kayacak, selesine diger popolar konacak.
özgürlük güzel ama, bence artik sen de herkes gibisin objet petit a vélib'im. seni kirmak isterdim ama belediyede abone kartim var, ceza yazarlar.
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